be mine forever (:

2012-01-14T01:41:00.001-06:00

do you ever came across a feeling whereby someone trying their hard to bring you down and act like as if they have never did anything wrong when the fact is you know almost everything about them in their past and worse still their past is even more uglier and darker than yours? yeah, that feeling. sister, it's becus that all this while i respected you, i fucken shut my mouth and willing not to say any single shit about you. but i think you are getting on my nerves. i never thought of even telling mum or dad about you and make you look bad on them. no i never did once do that. i know you are on a changing stage but that doesn't mean you can criticize me or bring me down as and when you wish. you were my all, the one i used to be close to, talk everything to but now there's no more all this. we often fight over a littliest thing and i can see that we are drifting apart. we did talk well eversince you started your 'changing' stage. i don't care all that but i just hate how you are now. i know im the small one in this house, i need that respect too. i know everyone in this house wants the respect. eventhough im the small one and still a kid in your eyes, i still have feelings. you were in my stage before but now not anymore that's why you criticize me every now and than. i'm pretty sure when you were in my stage, in a teenager life stage - growin up stage, people tried to bring you down too right. bedek kalau tak pernah. so yeah, did you still remember the feeling of what you get last time? if yes good but if you don't too bad may allah guide you through everything you do, you know Allah hates their slaves whom criticize others. yes, i cant say all this i know where i am standing, yes im still young and still learning but get this straight, atleast my past, present is cleaner than your past. and i hope in future your past won't touch my future. you know sometimes being the youngest one in the family can lead you to unwanted depression. even if we are in the wrong we still hafta apologize to the old ones but when they are in the wrong? we just hafta keep our fucken mouth shut. remember okay, i'm reaching 17 and still have alot of things to be learn.

2011-11-30T11:16:00.001-06:00

I wish you gonna read what i have written here on this new month on 1am. I cant really get myself to sleep. I always think of everything about you, what you have said to me today, yesterday and the days which has passed. As each day passes by, i just feel like i'm unappreciated. You have never get involve in any topic with what i talk to you. We seldom talk, text and meet each other. You have never wanted to listen to what i have to say. Living each day with full of heart pains and fake smiles is so not me. I have never keep whats inside me before until i met you. Cus whenever I'm trying hard not to have a tiff with you whenever i tried having heart to heart talk with you, you gonna think differently, get mad at me just like that and whenever i say something about you, you take it lightly or i often feels that you don't have the energy to entertain me. After this 13 months, everything about us is dying slowly. You don't know how much i miss how we used to be, worse still, i miss the old you. I just dont know how to let out this feelings to you when everytime i tried to do that you will start to be grumpy. I dont know what went wrong. I tried my best to be the best that i could for you but as each day passes by, i realize that everything about you and us is dying slowly. Its true when theres a saying to "no matter how much you love that someone , you still have to let them go" and whats hurts the most is when this saying is kinda true "its better to let go when holding on is much painful than letting go" i know today afternoon im meeting you up and hopefully this time round it works for me to talk things out, pour my feelings out. Say what i wanna say all this while. I have never bottle up this feeling this much. And what if one day i can't stand everything that i'm facing and on the urge of making foolish decision and still my heart isnt ready for any situation? Like facing the feeling at rock bottom. And falling so hard cus the hole you held for so long gets deeper. Alright. I think this is it. Im gonna empty my mind and have a giod sleep cus tomorrow for sure im gonna use a lot of energy. Live each day with full of happiness. May god bless you all. (:

2011-11-18T11:08:00.001-06:00

Boyfriend showed me his enlistment notice. He brought it just to show it to me. How cute. Alhamdulillah. Thats what you really want right? To get into the police category. Im glad to see you happy with what you get. Amin<3 cheyhhhh abang police coming in february lahh. Heheh. Awww im gonna see you botak soon baby. :p say goodbye to your beloved hair okhaii. Jahatnyaa aku. Heee. K bai. Goodmornight readers <3

2011-11-17T10:04:00.001-06:00

Hi people. Long time no update. And now is 12.02 am. I want to sleep. Cus i feel so shagged n sleepy. Just got back from work like 1hr ago. What i have got to say now is that, i cant wait for december to arrive ;) will update more okay. Mwa mwa!

2011-11-03T12:30:00.001-05:00

Sometimes, we meet certain people in our life without realizing how much they would mean to us later, maybe it’s the way they make you feel or the way they put a smile on your face whenever you talk to them, maybe it’s a feeling that you can’t exactly put into words, but you know you like this feeling and it’s something you don’t want to lose. So with that being said, This person shouldn’t be taken for granted, If they are there for you when you need them and they make you happy then let them know how much they mean to you, be there for them just like they are there for you. Let them know that you care about them by checking up on them from time to time to see how they are doing or to make sure they are okay. If they are putting in the effort and making time just to talk to you, then I advise you to do the same and not leave them hanging by themselves. They mean something to you, so let them know that and show them that at the same time. Be that one person that they can turn to when they feel sad, be that ear that listens to them when no one else will, be the shoulder that they can cry on when they need it the most, Just be the one they can turn to whenever they need someone <3

2011-10-31T00:16:00.000-05:00

see i found dead crabs along the beach and when i showed to boyfriend he get excited. haha.

my habit taking my own picture after taking with boyfriend. mwehehe.

i swear i didnt realise that boyfriend snap all this photos above. lawa kan? hehe. i sukaa. ;) i only got 2 photos taken with boyfriend. lain sume solo~ hehe. thought could meet boyfriend today but he can't :( yeayy tomorrow is the new month. be good to me kay november? :) anyway, i'm working at 5 later till 10. haiyaaa. k la, bye i want to rest and watch tv. lol. bye. xoxo.

2011-10-22T00:50:00.001-05:00

i suddenly have this strong feeling of missing boyfriend. he left singapore to jb till tomorrow with his family. gonna be lonely. but nevermind i'm working today and tomorrow. so i won't feel so lonely. hehe. been busy working and honestly, working is more tired than waking up early for school. gonna be working straight till wednesday. phewww. then thursday and friday off. oh yeaahhh. hehe. so happy. friday gonna spend my big day with boyfriend. in fact our big day ;) both of us are pretty much addicted to "sayangggg! anjeeee!" hahahah! ni lah gare2 tengok cite bini-biniku gangster. lol. anyway, i was being random just now that i went to spca website to adopt a cat cus i miss having a cat at home. haha. i'm gonna adopt a cat from there once i get my pay. yeay. yah, i love cat. why? hahaha. the cats all so cute okay. grrr. lol. ok shut up. hahha. i want to put picture taken with boyfriend but all the pictures are in his phone :( all new pictures inside his phone. my phone all antiquated pictures with him. aiyaaaa. kalau lah instagram boleh bukak kat lappy kan bagus. lol k lah. bye all have a great weekend ;) eh wait, enrique iqlesias handsome. haha k sempat. cus i watch a dont know watch show at channel 5. ade die jadi judge ngan nicole schezinger. haha. k bye :D

dear boyfriend, i swear i love you. hahahah k bye xoxo. love you boncet. oh tak eh? :P

2011-10-16T02:23:00.002-05:00

so i had fun spending my whole day yesterday with love. my life is sucha bore. haisss. now i realized something. i miss school :( whenever i see people with school uniform i will like oh damnit i miss school and sometimes i say to myself "do i like absent myself to school today?" lol. so yeahh, coming friday is my graduation day. can't wait to see my two girls. hehe. i need to catch up with you girls huhh. haisss, people now adays. just can't be bothered anymore. lead your life and be happy lah. it's simple as abc. the funny thing is that.. urmm. nevermind shouldn't i be living my life and not others? nooo im just concern about my two girls and pity those who just feel guilty for so long after what they have did and not to admit it? hmmm. yes yes, precisely. my mum said " buat ape klau muke lawa hati buruk" mweheheh. didn't say anyone in particular. just my thoughts. ;) yes, since i have no facebook. blogging is my hobby. lol. now i don't know what else to do. i still have yet to ask for my coming week work schedule. damnnnnn. boyfriend gonna be busy working too by next week. he will be applying for work soon. told him we won't be having so much time with each other. awwmannn :( he's sick now and still resting. home alone. tskkk. and i'm too lazy to go out. i need some rest at home. nak tengok bini-biniku gangster lah gini. since boyfriend have been saying some random scripts from that movie to me lately. and i was totally lost ._. k la k la. bye i want eat so hungrayyyyy grrrr. have a good sunday people ;) love you boyfriend. it's apporaching fast bb. hehehe ^^ k diam. mentel eh. lol!

who says living in this world won't be hard? it's hard enough till we feel like killing our self. ya right. bye!

2011-10-12T23:44:00.003-05:00

so i guess, i will be active back in blogging cause i'm not using facebook anymore and it's final. and i gonna be active in twitter, tumblr and 9gag too. tumblr and 9gag actually kinda similar with each other. so yeah, started my first day of work yesterday. i enjoy working there cause all the people there are very friendly and kind. i just feel comfortable working with them. eventhough it was my first day yesterday but it doesn't feel like it's my first day. but i won't be at that outlet for long cause they gonna transfer me somewhere further. :( so after work boyfriend fetch me. hehehe. i suka. so i'm gonna slack my buts off untill 3 and get ready for work again. hahah.

so it's the second day since that 'thing' over. i hope you would really learn this time round. yes, i am still scared for the future. haisss. but i wouldn't want that feeling to stop me from doing anything. i still hold onto my words. i hope you would read back my text and will do what i want to see along the way. you know, the moment when i let my heart take over control it's when everything turn out bad. and when i let my mind take over control it's when i really didn't see any bad things happening. so now i don't know if i should let my mind control me first until i really feel like i can let my heart take over back. my heart is too soft for it to handle. so it's mind and heart matters? yes. i just don't know. i won't let anything in me change cause i promised you not to change. i know if i'm not gonna be the same anymore, it's obvious things between us won't be the same too. you don't want that to happen, i don't want that to happen too. but sometimes, the best way is to be in the hard way. maybe then it works. so for now, i will just hope that history won't repeat itself like again. cause after all what i have for you is " i am sick and tired of everything". yeah it's true i'm trynna tp accept whatever that falls unto me but i still have my limits for everything and even this. i'm sure everyone has their own limits right. and it's true that human make mistakes, but that doesn't mean you can't learn from your mistakes right. it's either you really want to learn from it and try not to do it again or you don't learn from it and eventually you will do the same mistake all over again. and one more thing, even if things are fated to be that way, we can't just rely on fate. we can change it by putting effort to be at our best or not. so yeah, this young teenage girl here can only continue hoping and pray that Allah gonna protect her. sometimes god test us because He knew we can over come it cause He won't test us over our limit. cheers*

baby, we are left with 16 more days :) i love you.

2011-10-07T23:11:00.000-05:00

i'm so happy to say that my national exams is finally over. ahhhhh now i'm gonna busy working. and for sure i won't have so much time with boyfriend. boohoo. nvm. haha. oh yes, to those who still have their last paper on monday, all the best okay ;) so im gonna go for interview in few hours time with adik. yeay. so excited :D but apart from that, i have been having so much things running through my mind. i just don't understand people who always think of their thoughts for a long period of time. and the thought they are having is negative. i don't know. eventhough i'm young i know what i do and my limits. to people who still treat me like a primary school kid please change your mind set. i'm getting older. i wanna be independent. i don't need anyone to assure me if i'm gonna know what to do or not. yes, i have a lot still to learn. and for that, i try to learn along the way. let me learn and gain my self-confidence and let nothing holds me back. let me rest and enjoy for these few months before i get my results back and decide which path to go. one more thing, i'm the youngest but you can't force me to do what you know it's best for me when the fact is that i know myself better.everyone have their own ability to do what's best for themself. and you people don't have to decide what's best for me cause when you think what's best for me is really best and if i still can't please you people with what you think its best for me, it still gonna turn out the same way. i'm still gonna disappoint you people. and taking my national exams, there's no failure in the end it's just that my result determined whether i can continue another year of education at my secondary school or i'm fuging going out of my secondary school to a new school. there's no failure. it's the way of how you guys think of it. even if i couldnt make it my way up to sec 5, i still know what i'm gonna do for my future. stop saying that you guys are worried about me and all. see what i mean? you guys still treat me like a small kid when you guys know i'm on a growing up stage and still have lots of things to learn throughout my life. please, i want to do what i really want. don't stop me from doing what i want to do with my future. cus afterall, i'm gonna prove whoever that underestimate me wrong. ok lah bye. i shouldn't be elaborating about it anymore. it's just making me feel down. what i know now that i wanna be happy and enjoy myself. k bye.(:

2011-09-25T00:22:00.001-05:00

Kecoh Raya. Lulz

Perfomance @ HDB Hub

(too many pictures to upload so i chose afew to upload it here (; )

so yeah, had a lot of fun while i'm away form blogging cause i'm not into blogging lately. been busy studying, raya-ing and also working hard to finish my art paper 2. siannns. boyfriend and i are doing superbly great! hehe. he's becoming more boncet. oops. sorry accidently type it here cannot backspace ah boyfriend. too bad :( HAHA k ._. i'm left with a week to prepare for my national exams and be in school. after that i'm gonna work my ass out. lol. oh yes, i can't wait for next month to arrive. so many exciting things going on. cheyhhh. for now, i just need to focus on my studies. today i don't think i could study. haisss haissss cause my house is having an open house AGAIN for the second time. oh yah last weekend of raya. coming wednesday is the last day of syawal ready. so fast huh? k la k la, don't want to talk so much here. goodbye! have a wonderful sunday <3

2011-09-03T23:53:00.000-05:00

sorry for not updating my blog for too long. Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims. sorry for the late wish. heh. anyway, i had a great time lately, i am not getting too stress with my N level september papers which is this coming monday, tuesday and wednesday. i've promised myself to really study my social studies real hard today. im not going out for raya and frankly i am not so into raya this year -__- in addition i have asked my boyfriend to teach me. HAHA K. he can okay. to me he's smarter than me. yes, he is. i praise him not because he's my boyfriend! omg -.- he gonna test me on socail studies and other subjects from coming week onwards cus he's already free. he's no longer working. lulz. beside for my studies i have been busy with dance prac for this upcoming raya event at toa payoh. i hope things won't get corrupted. hahaha. so the day before yesterday it was teachers' day, after celebrating it i went home and get changed and i went to me boyfriend and his friends. we went to watch the smuf at golden village. lulz. the smurfs are so so so cute i tell you. hehe. you must watch it (: and yesterday had my dance prac and finally 2 songs completed with complete steps. ^^ boyfriend met me and waited for me. matenye mintak kene korek. tengok orang joget macam nak carik gadoh -.- haha k. den today i am all alone. boyfriend went to jb with his family for raya. i will be at home studying and wait for my relatives to come over. mum's cooking. yummmm~ so many food. omg, hari raya eat eat eat. in a week time have to weigh. cheyyhhh. i amm getting bored browsing through and scrolling down at facebook. oh yeah, besides that facebook is so colourful. very beautiful. all display pictures taken with their nice baju raya. heh. so i guess, after my september papers, i will be taking a break for a short while. going out with boyfriend and his friends for raya and also intensive dance prac before the official date. feel free to come down okay. hehe :D so yeah, Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims once again. enjoy these days while it last ^^

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2011-08-06T07:23:00.003-05:00

boys don’t get butterflies, we get fireworks. We don’t have you on our mind 24/7, but we do have you on our hearts. Often, yes we wait for you to go online, sometimes simply even just being online makes our heart skip a beat, even if we don’t talk. Whenever you talk to us, our face forms that half-smile; it means we are happy but are trying our hardest to not show it, and fail at hiding it. We do miss you all the time; granted, we’d spend all our time with you if possible. We don’t think of the smallest things you say, we think of every word you say, panicking at every single word, trying to define what it really means, to read between the lines. But wait there’s more.

We would love you in a million ways. And once we start loving you there is no going back for us. No matter how hard we try we will always love a girl that has touched us. Us boys when in love will think of that girl first thing in the morning, and think of that girl last before we sleep at night. Whenever we see a couple, our thoughts immediately jump to that girl, and imagine that the couple was us. Every single detail about her is loved; the way she walks, talks, speaks. The sound of her voice. Her laughter. The sparkle in her eyes. Her shy smile. The way she dresses. That cute face she makes when she’s asleep. And the way she says our name that our hearts just explode with mirth, a simple act that no-one else can replicate.

A boy in love with a girl is no simple thing, though ladies stereotype us guys as simple. A man in love is not simple. No. He will be unpredictable. He will be persistent, stubborn, and given the circumstances, if it means carrying you from one side of the world to the other to win your heart, a man in love would. He will be a martyr, giving his all and asking for almost none. He will show you how to appreciate the beauty of the world in a thousand ways, and then he will tell you how much he appreciates your beauty in a million ways.

A man in love is no simple thing.

#28 - damn boy, i love you fvcking much♥

2011-07-25T03:40:00.000-05:00

i've not been updating my blog for quite sometime. i had stomach pain for few days back and decided to consult a doctor today with mummy. Mummy was panic cus my stomach pain is one of a kind. spend almost 3 freaking hours doing nothing there just to wait for my turn to be call in. dear gastric, why do you come to me when fasting month is coming in a week time? zzzzzz. i gave school a miss for two days straight which is on last friday and today. awesome huh. my night coaching has started today but obviously i'm not attending it today. As i watch each day passes by, me and boyfriend have no much time with each other anymore. he's busy working all day while i'm busy with my school. Nevermind, this is life! hahaa. i love you baby. xoxo! lol. ok bye (:

2011-07-01T07:45:00.001-05:00

you know that feeling when you’re with someone and you just wish that time could stop for that special moment, coz everything feels so right. when everything else around you becomes a blur. you get all giddy inside whenever that person makes you smile or say something sweet. yeah those are the moments i live for. ♥

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just now youth day performances was great. i literally laugh my ass off when i watched my own art teacher acting on stage. with uniform put on, i swear he looks funny. haha! ok bai. i'm hungreyyyy~

2011-06-30T07:28:00.000-05:00

Bahagia itu kita yang ciptain, bukan mereka. Mereka gak tau gimana kita. Kita kan selalu berdua dan gak akan ada yang pernah bisa misahin kita, kita punya cara kita sendiri dan kita punya dunia kita sendiri. Aku sayang kamu, bodoh.
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i know i sent you this. and i know i was so random. as i was laying down on my bed the movie "Radit&Jani" came into my mind. i then came across the sentence above. after what happened, i just have a thing to say to you. i love you to bits and pieces. deep down my heart, i swear you are the first guy who really prove me love is really awesome when two parties really in love with each other. you always say things that in the end will make me say "yes, you are right". yesterday really shows alot, even i myself was really speechless and hurt when you was really fucking hurt. i swear you make me fall for you all over again. i swear i'm not lying. i know it's late already for me to wish you here but i know i ain't late to wish you thru text message last 2 days ^^ happy 8th baby. let's catch our dream together baby. i know we can (': don't be too stress with work alright. i love you so goddamn much. hahaha. i can't wait to spend my time with you on sunday. should i call it a date? O.o dah lame tak date ni laki skali lagi. HAHAHA. ok stop it ._. BABY YAKI! xoxo :p
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i think i write so much about him. don't blame me, i just can't resist of talking about him. he's my fucking favorite subject. lol! and now, i'm scared cus my N english oral is starting from next week and i haven't prepare myself. omg. i hate oral so much. i don't want please. i get nervous interacting with my own school teacher during oral what more with outside teachers. ohmygod D: i want to cry can. but whatever it is i still have to sit for it. no choice. i need more courage! :( alright, good day ahead. i want to finish my homework. eventhough i gave school a miss today. haha. oh yes, before i end i just want to say something to you, get the plastic of your face gurla. everything about you is plastic. LOL. pity you (:

2011-06-26T04:33:00.001-05:00

I SERIOUSLY NOT READY FOR SCHOOL!

thank you for yesterday baby, love it eventhough it was a last minute triple date outing with jali and syaam. i can't wait for coming saturday to come. hehe! oh yes, i want to thank you too for being with me through thick and thin. i used to know myself as a weak girl. but when you came into my life, you made me become a stronger girl and make me realize the meaning of this life. without you i wouldn't have be this good and well with my family. you thought me so much about life. yes, eventhough sometimes you are sucha pain in the arse ( i have to admit that ) hahaha. but still, you are the one who make me think better with all the advises you gave me. you are my friend, my best friend, my close friend, my enemy(hohoho :p), my boyfriend, part of my life. you complete everything in me. you are simply awesome! you make me fall so deep and it's hard for me to get out of it. thanks once again for being with me through thick and thin. i love you alot! :') i will upload pictures taken yesterday once i get it from my silly yet cute boy ♥ please get home fast, your battery is dead from yesterday and i feel so bored and lonely without you. zzzzzz!

2011-06-15T22:36:00.000-05:00

i'm sad cus these few days is sucha bore. going out in awhile to ktph to accompany sister there while waiting for mum to reach. i'm obviously gonna spend the whole day at there ._. boyfriend reminded me to study, do my homeworks and especially for my art. hahaha. i think i'm really weak boyfriend. you know i know. you know that feeling i had is super suckish. but i'm glad we could get over it and still standing strong now ;) you see, that's why i'm loving you so much and i can't deny the fact that my favorite subject is you. hekk :p and that angry bird i bought for you looks like you cus you used to like scolding me for some tiny stuffs in a ugly way. hahaha. kay not ugly but in a cute way. LOL! oh yes, guys what do you think of stalker/s? to me they've got nothing better to do and keep stalking the same person over and over again. hohoho. anyway, i'm out of words so see ya in my next post. cyber world is getting bored too. gosh! my life is turning unexcited. everything becoming bored. but one thing for sure that's not gonna be bored and never will. it's my love life. hehehe. alright good day ahead. enjoy your holiday while it still here. now is already the third week. ohmyy so fast or what. okay bai ;)

2011-06-13T01:29:00.005-05:00

#28. after every fight and argument, at the end of the day none of it even matters anymore. because you'd rather keep the relationship, and let the problem go. not keep the problem and let the relationship go. no matter what happens, no matter how much it hurt. nothing is more important than that person ♥ much misses baby. i hope we could meet each other soon. weekend please come fast, i'm becoming weaker already but to hold onto this i got to be strong enough to face this. i love you alot baby. this month of june is acting cruelly towards me ;( so much of boredom!

2011-06-10T00:27:00.001-05:00

# i love you. i really love you. i love you more than anything.

i love you so much it hurts to be away from you.

my two weeks of classes during holiday has ended. yay! and wait, i promised myself to do self-study on the remaining two weeks. yesterday i thought i could meet baby but unfortunately he have to go home straight :( the day before yesterday baby took half day for work just to have the last outing with syam before he go to camp. so yeah, today is the day. all the best syam. lol. how sad, i can't meet baby till next week cus i'm not gonna be in singapore tomorrow and on sunday. i couldn't meet him today too cus he's going for his second work at night. so busy huh you dude. so hardworking. lol. i want to watch movie with you the next following week. you promised me already! :p i'm loving us now. hahahehehoho. thanks for the advises you gave me for the past few days. sorry for letting my tears roll down my cheeks infront of you. i'm so weak :( i don't know if i could ever get over this so fast without you or not. yes, you're the only one that let me cover my face with a pillow and cry to sleep and the next day you assure me that i'm gonna be alright. hohoho. nah, you're wrong. :p i already feel alright before i went to sleep. why? cus, i tried doing what you told me and yes i did it. boy you got me trapped. made me trap inside your heart and fall so deep. okay bai. i got to go now. i'm going to polyclinic in awhile to accompany mum and sister to open sister's stitch on her foot(don't know which side.haha) that she went for operation last 2 days. have a good day ahead. it friday! enjoy! ;D

2011-06-07T09:44:00.002-05:00

left over pictures at sentosa taken from rara and also pictures taken on last sunday during kak yana and abg hafidz's wedding.

congratulations Kak Yana& Abg Hafidz <:

i will update properly again soon. oh yes, i cant wait for tomorrow. love you truckloads Mohamed Shah Nasrullah ♥

2011-06-01T01:32:00.001-05:00

i'm like so freaking bored right now. today is the first of june. please be good to me okay june. yesterday i had my malay dance practice and it was hectic yet fun cus the beat make us fly high. lol. eventhough it's been quiet sometime i didn't attend for my practices but still i'm still into malay dance okay. and today when i woke up in the morning my both legs are cramp. omg -.-" i can't wait for classes to be held on holidays especially next tuesday cus i'm gonna have a long day in school on that day. i find it so dead bored to rot myself at home all day long. i've got nothing special this holidays. not much plans. how sad. ;( i miss my boyfriend so much. i love you, your tight hugs makes me feel so calm. and wait, i love your smell. i miss you so much mohammed shah nasrullah. xoxo ♥

2011-05-30T23:33:00.001-05:00

*pictures not in order

some pictures that i upload here was taken on last saturday. i had awesome days spent on saturday and yesterday celebrating my sweet sixteen :P. thank you dad for the baby-G black and pink watch and thank you boyfriend for the marc jacob pink handbag and also thank you sab for the lovely bracelets, cream and pictures with words on it. you're the sweetest girlfriend i ever had. oh yes, not to forget to those who wished me through facebook or text messages, thank you so much. i really appreciate it. love you people. just in case to whoever in facebook didn't notice that i thanked you all in my latest status, just to let you know that it's impossible for me to reply all your posts. a big thank you to all of you once again. xo! i'm lovin hot pink so much. lol.

2011-05-26T01:53:00.003-05:00

i've not been attending school since yesterday. i got the second thought of going to school today after having stomach upset. it hurts alot. june holidays is coming real soon but i know i won't have the time to slack anymore during that period cus my holidays is taken for intensive sessions for most of the subjects. i have to be well prepared for both mocking tests and prelims then i would have the confidence to sit for my N's. it's funny how people who have already finished their N's will tell me this "N level is nothing. it's easy." and i will go muttering inside my heart "you gone through it, you've already gotten your result and the result is what you wanted. of course you would say that to me -.- " this is what exactly is when i told my cousin who is taking her PSLE and the respond she got from me is what i got from the people who already took their N's and passed. i know my example is kinda stupid. yeah i know cus my highest qualification is PSLE. uh huh, that's the only example i could give. trolololol. i'm still young and i am only sitting for my N's. so? it's better than not taking it at all right. haha. okay, why am i being so emotional about this anyway? oh yes, i will make sure i get up early in the morning and go to school tomorrow. i wanna get all my school stuffs including june holidays schedule. okay wait, i'm dead. i'm half way done for my manipulations art drawings. and i realized now that i've got so many things to catch up with. it isn't too late right. so anyway, i'm happy for baby cus he have been quiet okay with his new job which is recommended by my sister and guess what, he likes to talk about me to my sister. omg, my sister will go disturbing me at home about him. thank you eh, i love you b <:) --" uh-huh! i can't wait for coming saturday to come which falls on the 28th. heeeee. mentelsxzzss sekali aku :P beach beach beach baby! ^^ and the good thing is... hehehkk. nevermind, you will find out soon ;D if only money drops from the sky. hahaha, okay bai <: i love you so much bayyy; MSN ♥

- it's been awhile huh i update properly? :D

2011-05-21T09:41:00.002-05:00

i don't mind when our conversations get a little boring. i don't mind when we're texting and we run out of things to say. when we're hanging out together but not doing anything, well I don't mind that either. it doesn't matter to me because i finally realized that when you're truly in love, every moment spent together doesn't have to be breath-taking, that you’ll still feel like the luckiest person alive even through the most unexciting times, and you will feel completely comfortable together because you know that just having each other is more than enough. i love you msn. much misses. xo ^^

2011-05-15T06:40:00.000-05:00

I'm so shagged. i will update when i'm not lazy and free.

- I LOVE YOU MSN . \m/!

2011-05-11T21:17:00.000-05:00

i'm glad to say that my mid year has ended.and i know my result is gonna ruin my day when i get back on the official date given to me. so basically what had happened or what i did yesterday was all unplan. firstly, i thought i could actually talk things out with boyfriend before he go to work but unfortunately after a few seconds i met him, his bus arrived. so after which lovely girldfriends including a 'bird' which i don't know where he came from came over to my place and slack. lol. some of them watch movie, some surf the net while ras the bird wanted to doll me up so i agreed cus i was fucken bored. after i'm done with ras, some of them are bored too so they decided to doll up too. how beautiful day look. i sound so lessbian.com. lololol! after slacking with them. around an hour later boyfriend came down to my place without me knowing. so i guess, everything is fine now. dear boyfriend, i miss us. and yeah, everything that happened yesterday was so unexpected. toodles.

- shake, whine and roll; lose control.

2011-05-10T03:16:00.003-05:00

note to self:
i think the best part about being young and in love is how deeply we feel. when you find someone you really like, you get really excited and jittery just to hear their voice. you think about their every feature and every moment you spend together and it just makes you feel happy inside. that first kiss is like nothing could ever explain, it's too good to be true. but teenage love is like a roller coaster. it's cliche but so true at the same time. you fight and scream and yell. you're whole body just feels weak, with your heart hanging heavily. you fall asleep crying, thinking that nothing could be worse, feeling like you've hit rock bottom. we feel so deeply, even the pain. we let ourselves get hurt because we never knew how hard we would fall. we were so ignorant of the consequences. yet we should still be thankful to have the ability to feel that hurt, that you found someone that could actually make you feel that way. couples laugh and cry, we learn to love and be strong. and then the second thought of a future without your special someone is something you don't want. the pain that you have caused him/her, the ludicrous words you have said to him/her, hoping that he/she won't give up on you. you can't even describe the love you have for him/her. maybe, sometimes you didn't show it but deep down your heart, you know that your love for him/her never will fade away. thank you for coming into my life. i love you. #28 ♥

2011-05-09T23:42:00.000-05:00

when nobody was there, you were right next to me, telling me to keep going. even if i roll my eyes, or say “whatever” and storm off. you have a heart of gold, and i hope that i can be half a good mother as you are to me. i can never repay you enough for everything you have done for me. i hope one day, you look at me and feel a sense of pride in your heart. that day, you'll know what i feel every time i look at you. you are the strongest, most beautiful, and most intelligent woman i know. thank you, for everything you’ve done, everything you do, and everything you will do. i love you mummy. i hope you enjoyed yesterday ^^ ♥

you got stucked up in my mind all the time.

2011-05-06T07:52:00.004-05:00

if there ever was a day when you were afraid.just know that you aren't the only one. truth is, i've been afraid since day one. sometimes, i end up thinking the worst happening to us. but all of that goes away when i'm with you. i don't think about anything else because when i'm with you, i am completely with you. my mind, my body, my heart. you become the center of attention. my world. my everything. and it's in that moment when i'm with you, not thinking about anything but us, that i feel like we'll get through anything. as long as we're together. your presence replaces my feelings of doubt with those of certainty. with you is where i want to be, because that's where i feel safe. and i want you to feel safe too. right here, with me. in my arms. i know it's random but nevermind i like to write random stuffs like this for you. i even send you random text. i hope i put a smile on your face. i promised you and myself. yes, i will <: i love you so much mohamed shah nasrullah. xoxo ♥

2011-04-27T05:53:00.002-05:00

i had fun working with my babygirls at paya lebar on last saturday. but at the same time i miss my msn so much ^^ i hate my condition now. sore throat, runny nose, my voice sound nasal. omg. hahaha. i'm becoming to love PE more each lesson cus my PE teacher is simply awesome. we love seeing you playing soccer with our class cus why? only 4nc knows. hahaha :D and we had class photo taking session just now. i swear i look so masai okay. lol. anyway mid year exam is in a day time. omgomgomg! i really have to wash my brain and burn my midnight oil! ermmm.. k then, enjoy all the pictures i've uploaded here (pictures not in order) i won't elaborate much. i love you girls so much. muah2! ^^ oh wait, i am so gonna enjoy my 6th with baby tomorrow! :D i love you mohamed shah nasrullah <3

2011-04-19T05:43:00.001-05:00

i didn't update my blog for more than a week. last saturday went to sentosa with boyfriend and his friends to celebrate firdaus's birthday. awesomezxszz ;> i don't feel like using my lappy anymore. cus first, i have deactivated my facebook :D and mid-year exams coming real soon. i got no hope for combine science so i've decided to concentrate on my combine humans. lol -.- coming thursday, my school will be having home-based learning programme. there's schedule for it. gosh. i hate this. won't be updating often here okay. bye readers. xoxo! :D

iloveyou.imissyou.ineedyou.mohamedshahnasrullah.muahmuah! <3

2011-04-10T03:20:00.001-05:00

had a awesome day out to chalet with my crazy lovelies. especially with boyfriend. i sulk a lot of times yesterday. awwww, sorry boyfriend but i'm becoming more sensitive. lol :P there's nothing for me to elaborate about yesterday. okay bai :D

2011-04-04T08:41:00.001-05:00

today were awesome. i intended to wake up early in the morning as plan but when my alarm clock wake me up i snooze for 15 minutes. by then i was already short of time cus i told my friends to meet at 6:15 and i was the one who is late. good job! after which syam called and inform me that boyfriend is tagging along. i was like O.o really? lol. so much of your don't-know-whether-can-go-out-or-not huh. sweet lah tu? berok betol. i love you baby ^^ waited him at northpoint. i wasn't worried about being late cus i know many of the northlanders gonna be late too. i pity baby and syam for having so much patience waiting for me and shy outside the stadium. poor thing. lol. sports day was fun and guess what i slack slack slack after that. yeay me? hahaha. i miss you boyfriend eventhough i have met you just now :D i can't wait to see your face again tomorrow! heee. i lap you kentot :P

2011-04-02T02:02:00.003-05:00

I Love You Mr.Saxo Beat! :D

you make me this, bring me up, bring me down.

baby got me addicted to this song. naiceee <:

i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.

i hate how you managed to fake your feelings. maybe you are but then you said no to me. i will wait for you to come home. i want to feel the vibration and noise coming out from my phone. i want to hear your voice. i don't know why i texted you that but i know you wouldn't like it to see that one word. are you faking me or are you really not feeling what i thought since yesterday? i don't know. i just love to hear the truth even if it hurts. i don't want you to get hurt alone. i love you mr.saxo beat. hahaha <':

things are changing slowly. i just don't feel like talking to anyone around me at home. i have nothing left here. even if i say the honest truth no one would believe me. i love this. i can't wait for monday to come. cus there's sports day in yishun stadium after which i'm gonna watch movie with baby. yeay! ^^ anyway, i don't understand why people just love to talk shit behind people's back. you have your own life to live and take care of, so do that thing of yours. mind your own bussiness. good day ahead people. bye <:

2011-03-28T09:39:00.002-05:00

so my 5th were spent so great eventhough it's only around my home area. my words isn't just to ease your feeling okay boyfriend. I don't care where we spend our time together as long as we get to spend quality time together. Remember, i treasure and cherish every moment with you, us. thank you for the famous amos cookies you bought for me that i've craved for. Hehe. I love you like a lot okay. eventhough i've been feeling green lately, it's because insecurities are acting up. But nevermind, i will try to cut all that down slowly cus i know when each day passes by, i will be well adapted by that. after meeting baby, he went to takraw with his friends just behind my crib. so near yet so far. Lol. what i intended to do has been done. Yeay. I have completed my homeworks. i am so happy cus my mum is back home sweet home. have a nice long rest okay mummy, don't make yourself occupied with so much of house chores. fvck this shiet, i have yet to colour my hair. If not i will be chase till i don't know when. Stoopid. hello teacher, you make me wanna puke at your face cus you always pick on me eventhough you told me earlier on that you don't. brrrr. -.- you are 0.5% nice only okay. Your social studies lessons are all eaten up with all your nags. Seriously, you should cut on your naggings and start teaching more. <: i guess, im gonna colour back my hair later after a month being chased by you. I'm getting tired too. You spoiled my fucken mood early in the morning today. But nevermind, i didn't let all your words eat all my good mood. so who was the one that bring me up and put a smile on my face again? Yes, it's Mohamed Shah Nasrullah. <: and yes, you did your surprise like again eh. Grrrr. shooo cute. happy 5th once again. I love you so much! Ok bye <:

2011-03-26T10:43:00.004-05:00

today my plan was to sit at home the whole day but when i woke up in the morning my sister told me that my mum was sent to hospital. when i reached ktph, she have to go for an operation. waited for almost two and the half hours. thank god, everything went smoothly. i can see the pain from her face, eyes and hear it from her voice. get well soon mum, i love you. boyfriend came to visit mum unexpectedly. cus when he called me he was at his work place. and this time round he was really at his work place. but then at around 6 plus he called me again asking me to fetch him at level one. this part saya lost okay. hahaha! i thought he was kidding me. lol. after which we sat for awhile and then he accompanied me home to take mum's stuffs. his face look so fatigue. obviously he don't have enough rest today. thank you for accompanying me home and back to ktph. he weren't that long with me cus he have to go to work tomorrow and need enough rest. so my sis shai and i planned to sleep there and accompany mum but when my aunt came to visit her, she asked my aunt to send us home. ape lah -.- haha. so today i spend my time at the hospital. but nevermind, my laptop were there to accompany me before baby came. hehe. i managed to finish up my social studies project. yeay me! lol. but wait, i have yet to do my english summary,essay and... ermmm chemistry? i don't know. i have to re-check. chemistry stuffs simply can't get into my brain cus my teacher simply don't know how to fucken make me, not only me. in fact the whole class understand the way she teaches us. sickening!-.- so anyway, i've been feeling very green lately. it's true when guys get jealous it's kinda cute but when girls get jealous, world war three is about to start. girls get jealous so easily cus insecurities are acting up in her. <: boyfriend, i don't know for the how many times i am saying this but nevermind i never will get tired of saying this to you. i love you berry much sensitive, cute, annoying boyfriend! hehe ^^ \m/

2011-03-24T07:10:00.001-05:00

i have been slacking with friends and boyfriend after school lately. but yesterday i gave school a miss. i'm sick! <: yesterday itself i went to meet baby early in the morning. tag syaam along to fetch his girlfriend. i go to school when school has ended. yay me, ok lame. haha. after which went to northpoint and walk around and then to fill our stomach. i went home early okay. <: and today, i had my mid-year oral. i was fucken nervous cus my oral examiner is one of the teacher that i have never talk to at all. not even once. his stare and voice scare us. yes, really. but then the class that he teaches told me and the rest who are under his list that he's nice. obviously i don't trust them. cus i just don't. lol. and yeaa, i made it but then i was stuttered at this one part. i managed to let myself not to go speechless. but anyway, i don't think i could get good marks cus he's standard and expectation is very high. higher than other teachers. O.o ni lah orang kate cikgu matrep yg english power. seram plak tu orang tengok die. i have never seen him wearing short sleeve to school. in fact, not me only, the whole school. lol. nevermind, this part takperlu.com nak bilang sini. HAHA. so for the whole day today i was very restless and kept thinking of how in the hell am i gonna make it for my oral. and then i just give it my all and tried my best. so... i think, ermm.. i don't know! haha. and then my boyfriend jahat okay, he forgot to text me back :( luckily i bumped into syamil and then i just know that he didn't go to work. grrr..! kalau tak sekarang dah perang besar okay. LOL. awww, boyfriend so cute surprise tk menjadi! tskk. nvm! hahahaa! stop making surprises lah, i want to beat the number of surprises you already given to me! but i know, i will never ever get to beat yours. grrrr. i am so the g.e.r.a.m with you okay. guess what, today had my art lesson for 2 hours but my art teacher wasn't there cus he went to saudi arabia. so the art students did their our stuffs. for the last 30 minutes before we end our art lesson, me and my girls had a laughing and the lamest thing ever that we did moment. hehehe ;D so then, i got home at 6 just now. baby is takraw-ing. okay, i'm so mendak menonggek. hell yes, tomorrow is FRIDAY! <: and now, i really got to get things work. STOP LAZING AND SLACKING AROUND kay yaya. do your social studies project and homeworks like now, yes now. okay bye all. will update again soon when i have the time and mood :D

#28 - I Love My Boyfriend A Lot! ^^ <3

2011-03-20T23:16:00.000-05:00

hi boyfriend, i love you.

i don't feel like blogging. but i'm bored. what should i do now? finish up my homeworks? not now. i don't know what i want and feel like doing right now. ok bye.

- you are very annoying. thanks for telling -.-

2011-03-15T09:40:00.001-05:00

march holiday isn't a holiday to me. time flies so fast. how i wish i could pause the time as and when i like. homeworks are still not done. tons of it are waiting for me. i was being random and decided to watch a malay movie titled "nur kasih". i know it was so last two years movie but that show really touches my heart. anyway, i have been lazing and rotting at home. i just don't feel like doing anything. not a single thing. with this situation i'm facing made me what i am now. baby, thanks for being by my side when i need you the most. thanks for hearing me out. you made me feel way so much better with the hugs you gave me. i feel so placid. i promised to do what you asked me to do okay. i love you so much. i miss you, your presence. we may bring out the worst in each other but most of the time, we always cease to bring out the best especially when we're together, that is something i, myself cannot even fathom. but one thing is for sure, we gonna make it work when things goes wrong and will always stay strong no matter what. i love you, and only you. \m/

2011-03-13T22:31:00.000-05:00

my saturday were spent awesomely great. by right it was an outing with both baby and friends. But all of them has their own plans. so it ended up to be our date out. Hehe. baby and i did literally walk around the town area. went to cineleisure to fill our stomach. This part very cute. We 'quarreled' while deciding what food to buy. I don't know why i eat lesser and lesser each day. my stomach will for sure be overload each time i eat together with baby. Cause he partly forced me to finish up my food when i really can't. After which i have to be his second smoker -.- sedot asap! Baby, smoking kills you know. Hehek :P after which baby told me that he wanted to send me back home. I was like wtf? So early? the clock haven't reach 7 yet. Hahaha. And guess what? He surprised me again. He brought me to raffles place at this one particular place near his work. So windy, nice scenery and can relax your mind there. both of us was very talkative. We talk like a lot. i find it rare for both of us to talk a lot like this. Lol. After all the wonderful time spent together, i have to go home. My mood changed in a blink of an eye the moment i stepped in to my house. I shouldn't elaborate about it. sorry baby, because of that you became my victim too. Haha. I want you to know that i had a awesomely great time spent with you yesterday till the feeling of don't-want-to-go-home was there :P cheyhh. I love you berry berry much mohamed shah nasrullah. Muahmuah! ^^

2011-03-09T09:03:00.003-06:00

i don't feel like blogging but boyfriend ask me to update. haha. Today thought that i could only meet him for an hour but malay coaching was canceled due to my teacher didn't show up in school. i can't wait to see her tummy gets bigger. I had a random dream. i dreamnt about her getting pregnant and not long after, my dream became reality. Omg. Haha. I told her about it and to her excitement she asked me whether her new born baby pretty/handsome or not. Cute or what but unfortunately i didn't dream about how her baby look. Lol. after having upper sec assembly, boyfriend waited for me outside school. Headed off to 118 to slack for awhile. after which he have to go off to work. reached home, gotten myself ready to bugis. did some shopping with sister(Y) alot of people there eventhough it's on weekdays. Spent like 1 and half hours there. Couldn't spend that much time. Sister and i were exhausted. We both don't even talk that much with each other. then home sweet home. Received a call from boyfriend, he told me he ended his work early because he requested for it. he came over to my crib and i had alot of fun disturbing my cheeky boy. Hehek. i can't wait for tomorrow's sport heats 1. Wohoo. Someone 'make' new friend. Lol. you know i know eh boyfriend *wink2*! I should turn in now. Sleepyhead! Sleepyhead! Sleepyhead!

- pakcik sensitive plus cute plus cheeky; MSN. I lap you very much. ^^
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2011-03-06T05:20:00.003-06:00

Happy 16th birthday to the two wonderful ladies on both my right and left. may this year be your best ever. i hope all your birthday dreams and wishes come true. not just a year older, but a year better. here's to another year of experience. wishing you great happiness, a joy that never ends. and may god bless both of you. love you girls \m/!

i have a very boring weekends like again. i miss my sensitive boyfriend so much. and to you jerk, if you think you are old and mature enough then why in the hell are you still doing all this immature stuffs? bloody hell. you know i've been closing one eye since that incident happen. you know what? from what i see from those people who kept commenting and liking your statuses, it tells me that you did a great job on making twisted stories. well done. but hey jerk, no matter how much time you spent on twisting your stories or even tell others about it, fucken bare in mind that i fucken know the entire REAL truth about what you did. i have the right to be mad cause she's my sister. i love her and i don't want her to die in her early age. to be honest, i fucking hate you since the first time you did that to her. brainless jerk. you are considered lucky because you are not trapped behind the bars right now. so i suggest you to shut the hell up. thank you.

#28.You.

2011-03-04T06:29:00.001-06:00

from when the sun is shining gold to the point of clear darkness with the bright moon, i'm happy that you are in my life. i treasure you. i adore you. i cherish you. i care about you. it doesn't really matter how bad my day is because you always make things better. you always keep a positive mood and that's a trait that i adore the most about you. you always raise my spirits and encourage me. you give me hope in my future. your voice cures everything within me. the warmth of your voice. the reassuring words that pass through your voice. you are worth it baby. you are worth, everything. sape matair i? Mohamed Shah Nasrullah ♥ heee ^^

2011-02-28T07:04:00.002-06:00

today school as per normal. had my social studies and mother tongue paper. i fucken slept for 30 minutes after completing my mother tongue paper -.- after which met baby and get change. went to city hall and esplanade. spend some quality time with baby until the clock strikes 5. we couldn't spend much time together as he got to go to work. but it's okay, i'm still blithe that we could actually managed to go out together today. baby, thanks for the ring that you bought for me as a gift. it is so beautiful and pure in color. it imply on how you shower me with so much of love, pure love. i don't know why i didn't make full use of myself today. i didn't managed to hold(you know what i mean). sometimes, i just feel the way that you don't like me to feel, think or even say it to you. you make me fall in love with you all over again each day. you don't need to be a superman or spiderman or batman. i just want you to be my only man. you know you're so sweet. sweeter than me. from the starting till now, you have made alot of surprises for me. way alot more than i do. once again, thank you so much for the gift and today. you made time just for me eventhough it wasn't that long. happy 4th monthsary baby. time flies so fast and i don't even feel like we have been together for 4 months. i feel like as if we are still new to each other. like the very first time we met each other. Mohamed Shah Nasrullah, you've made me fall so deep. too deep for me to get out of it. i love you so much. \m/

- i will wait for the moment when my phone receive a text from you. even it takes me hours to wait, i sure will wait for this moment to arrive. i want you to take care of yourself at your work place. much misses <3

2011-02-26T03:14:00.001-06:00

finally i'm done with my blog skin. pheeww! i won't change my blog skin unless i feel like changing it. yesterday supposedly to have my p.e lesson for an hour but my teacher didn't come in to my class. i fucken wasted my time changing to my p.e -.- girlfriends was all down when they didn't get to play freeze-bee. haha. cute or what. after which, a relief teacher came in. we planned to go down and have our own p.e lesson but then everyone was good enough to stay in class. and everyone was in a camwhore mood. haha. during recess, for the very first time my class eat together. lol. some of them was touched and blithe to see all of us in this way. haha! after recess had chemistry test, gonna flunk that paper for sure. i always mistaken one of this word named 'molten slag' as 'menthol slag'. so stupid of me. tskkk! after school i intended to go home straight but boyfriend love to surprise me so much. he even tell me that he was at home eating but the truth is, he was on his way to fetch me. cute kan boyfriend i :P okay, stop it. hahaha! mum wants me to tag along with her to singapore expo for a speech later on but i don't want. it's a fucken SPEECH. boring okay. tskkk. if i tag along, i would fall asleep there. -.- so my answer is a no. some of my questions in formspring is so takperlu.com. pffftt. oh yes, i can't wait for monday to arrive ^^ boyfriend, i so boring and i am so gonna wait for your text (:

2011-02-24T07:37:00.004-06:00

don't ask me why i'm active back in blogging. I guess my blogging mood has turned on. lol. btw, this starhub internet connection is bloody irritating. it gets connected only for awhile. another half and hour or less, it suddenly get disconnected. I swear this is super annoying. I didn't know that my internet connection has moodswings too -.- it simply turned my mood off when i open my google chrome and it says "sorry, there is internet connection error" this really sucks big time you know. especially when i wanted to chat with bf. and when bf went offline, that's when my internet connection could get connected. And that's when it feels so suckish (Y) Nevermind, even if i wrote it here, nothing could change a thing in this annoying internet connection of mine. so anyway, it feels so sad when you plan something and it has to be cancelled last minute and in the end it feels so great to know that you got to meet your bf eventhough he told you earlier that both of you couldn't meet each other. everything was so last minute for me today. even i got to know that my mum and dad didn't go to work today. (Y) -.- and when i got home after meeting bf they went out for a date. nottt. haha. bf is working at night today. i would stay up and accompany him till he finish working if i could stand my eyes. Hahaha. I'm addicted to you MSN :D not live messenger okay. hehe ^^ i've been saying MSN for several times here but only now i say what it means. But i know it's pretty obvious that i wasn't refering to live messenger lah du-uhhh. -.- i think i should update my blog using my mobile phone from now on since i wrote quite lengthy when using my phone to blog. The only boring thing is that i don't have a picture on my post. nevermind, won't die rightt. Haha. Omg yaya, tomorrow is chemistry test. i still didn't revise anything. guess why? I don't fucking understand what my chemistry teacher teaches me. Not a single thing. It's my luck if i could make it through it all in my paper tomorrow. Wish me goodluck okay. Haha. Tak tahu malu betol. okay, i shall stop here. \m/

- i love you Mohamed Shah Nasrullah! ^^

2011-02-23T08:55:00.001-06:00

currently using my mobile phone to update my blog. Had a wonderful time both in school with girlfriends and outside school with boyfriend and friends. i love today senior's showcase 2O11 performances. Especially from denzel and the two beautiful express ladies. but overall, everyone who took part in it did a great job. Congratulations to all of you. apart from all that, there's this one person made my mood turned off for awhile. Cause that person simply has a pair of annoying eyes. Well, what to do? i can't blame that particular person for having a narrow mind and immature thinkings. i want to see till when can this last. Im willing to feign this time round but not for long i guess. i have yet to finish with some revision on geography. i am so not prepared for common test. and worst still, mark of common test week starts tomorrow before having a week break. Baby is currently watching a movie and i don't know what's the title. I still have few more things to remember for tomorrow test. I want to end it fast and turn in. Okay, good. While blogging, baby gave me a call, talk for awhile and we hang up. Baby wanna tuck in, so do i. Alright, goodnight lovely readers. \m/!

2011-02-19T01:37:00.004-06:00

he’s not perfect, and neither am i. the two of us will never be perfect but he often make my day. i admit that the both of us are not far from making mistakes. i’ll hold onto him, and give him all of my heart. sure he probably doesn’t think about me every second, but he did give me a part of him that i can't promise i could handle it with care everytime. i will try my best not to hurt him, or expect more than he can give. i won’t analyze him. i will smile when he makes me happy, tell him straight up when he makes me mad, and miss him terribly when we are apart. he may not be perfect, but he is perfect for me♥ remember, i love you no matter what happens.

BORING SATURDAY. i'm all alone again. i'll wait for you to come home. alright, i won't be blogging much in this post. good day ahead people. (:

2011-02-16T05:28:00.001-06:00

school was neutral today, same old thing happening in school. after school had my mother tongue coaching class till 4pm and then headed to my classroom to do some decorations with girlfriends. after which i make my way home straight. yesterday gave school a miss. thank god i wasn't in school cause i heard from others that the emergency exercise wasn't as happening as last year. hahaha. ludicrous much. i regret putting northland secondary school as one of my choices after this principal came to northland. he's treating us like a kid. it's not just about the name tags that he issued it to us. it's about other stuffs too. even the environment in school is changing slowly. damn it. nevermind, i'm left with how many months till i left this school but if i could make through this year, i must have to endure another year then. insyallah! how i wish i've got a time machine so that i could bustle the time when i'm in school. lol. okay merepek. anyway, i didn't meet with boyfriend today. so our mood gonna be in a bipolar state. i hope not. i want to be in a happy mood till i don't know when. hahah. oh god, this cramp is killing me >.< ok bye, i will update again soon \m/!

i love you okay MSN ^^ ♥

2011-02-13T09:07:00.003-06:00

after all the downpours we had gone through, it's proven that we can make things work with each others help. i hope we won't have any quarrels for this one whole week. i love today cause i get to spend my time with my lovely,sensitive,irritating,cute boyfriend. hehe. sorry baby, don't get furious after reading the words to describe you. :P i still love you, always will do apart from what i have said. oh yes, i really love just now. we sat at this one park where we met each other for the third time when i was still 'not-use-to-talk-to-you'. hehe. there's one part where we felt awkward with each other for a moment. *blush* xD we partly celebrated valentine's day in advance. tomorrow would be impossible for us to meet each other. Mohamed Shah Nasrullah, i promised myself to be a good girlfriend to you. nyahahaha. you're so one in a million, baby you're the cutest boyfriend i ever had. :P one more thing i want to say to you. you're not my life but you're the one that i want to spend my time with. you're not my world, but you're the best thing in it. i love you very very much. xoxo <3
pacarku, sudah cukup panjang ngak? :D hehe. okay, goodnight. awak tak reply saya. sudah tidur ya kamu? takda signal betol. cute okay kau. sayang kau! ^^

2011-02-12T23:53:00.004-06:00

celebrated dearest chacha's sixteen birthday at javanese restaurant with lovelies. gave her a surprise birthday party at night. before she knows everything, she revealed her pensive mood to one of us. i'm pretty sure she's jubilant with what we gave her yesternight. this is what we have been keeping from you for the past 4 days. i hope you like the surprise ^^ we girls love you chacha (:

there's this one girl got me captivated with all her pose in every picture she took. she's been the topic to everyone lately. haha. it's so hilarious. i can't help laughing. self-obsessed lah kan. :P my girls dared me to comment on her pictures. and i did (: she even admit that she's pretty? hahaha. omg. okay stop it. :P

i should have gone out to chingay this morning but it's just so tough to get up and not to be with my bed till noon. haha. sorry to whoever that waited for four of us. tskkkk.

28. i'm sorry for everything that happened yesterday. i love you msn <3

i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.

2011-02-03T00:13:00.004-06:00

picture taken yesterday. ignore my ugly face okay. hahaha!

school ended at 10plus yesterday. by right it has to end earlier than that. met love and friends at northpoint and filled our stomach. first time this year i spend the whole day with baby. but unfortunately, the time pass super fast when i'm with him. we had fun making fool of this one particular group. they all so ridiculous please (: will be off soon to giant with mum and dad. baby has gone to jb with his family till saturday. going to have a long day ahead without him around. boohooo! eventhough we often had a tiff, i still want you to know that my love for you won't and never will change. i love you so much pakcik! <3

chicaa, i know you will drop by here and read my post. don't be too disheartened with what had happened. you still have your friends who will always love you and be there for you whenever you need them. cheer up okay! i don't want you to do anything doltish when you're alone. don't worry, this matter is kept safe with me and her. everything happens for a reason. god won't test us above our limits. remember that. i know you're strong. love ya babe (:

2011-01-28T07:46:00.001-06:00

thanks for today, love. even it is only for a short time, i cherish every moment we spent our time together (:

i love love love my boyfriend so freaking much! :D

2011-01-27T08:30:00.001-06:00

Happy 3rd monthsary baby. i love you very muchyy!

i want you to know that even if i say the things that you don't like to hear, i don't mean it at all.

i love you like how a mother love her new born baby :P

i won't be infront of my lappy when the clock strike 12midnight. so it's best to wish now than later. (:

SSBMS LOVE MSNBMR SO MUCH! muahhhh! ;D

my blog won't be alive for the time being. busy with life, school, boyfriend. hahaha. okay bye! <3

2011-01-15T01:37:00.001-06:00

it's already the second week of school, coaching classes has started too. won't be updating too often here. either i'm too slothful or i've no time to update. ever since school started, everything's changing slowly. school works are piling up with little time at home and heavy eyebags that are carried by me anywhere i go. yesterday's pe lesson bring me cramps from both my legs up to my body parts. i'm feeling the pain at my back already. and now i can't even walk properly :( this shows how long i've not been exercising. haha. what a nice weather to sleep right now ^^ but i don't feel like sleeping anyway.

even if time don't permit us to meet that long, i believe that my love for you will never change. even if we're far apart from each other, your heart is the only thing that stays in mine wherever i might be. trust me, it doesn't matter how far we are apart and how rare we meet. it's the feelings that we have for each other. i always remember the time when we first met each other, that's how i exactly feel now. i love you so much mohamed shah nasrullah (':

2011-01-06T05:51:00.004-06:00

there's nothing new for me on the first day of school. every level is given a color to their name tag. ridiculous much. i just don't feel like i'm in sec four. i'm not ready for all the things that going to happen. especially for my major exam this year. next week mark of coaching week till march. three months of coaching classes. yes, i'm not ready! time flies too fast. super fast :/ baby will be taking his Os result on this coming monday. goodluck baby! die yang nak amik result aku pun rase seram skali. hahaha! i miss you :( we won't be spending time together as much as we did for the past 2 months. i bet that my schedule in school will be pack in months to come. i have yet to get 50 art drawings for my teacher by this month. heh! takde lagi sikit kepee. aduiii~! okay i'm blank. bye! :D

2011-01-01T04:02:00.002-06:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

whatever bad things that happened on 2010 remains there.

it's already 2011, we should turn over a new leaf! rock on baybeh! \m/

2010-12-28T20:51:00.001-06:00

yesterday accompanied them to take their pay and to shopping. had a fun time together.

three days of loneliness is over for me. heh. today mark of our 2 months. baby has gone to his training for 31st. thanks for the one drop perfume that you bought for me. i love you baby! muaahhh! this week is the last week of holiday. next week i already have to wake up early in the morning and drag myself to school like usual. how fast time flies. this friday i don't know where and with who i'm going out with. baby have to work on countdown. boohooo! i'm alone! hahaha. nevermind. i'm so not ready for 2011. i have yet to buy my books. wah best. ok bye. \m/

- Happy 2nd monthsary Mohamed Shah Nasrullah ♥

` [C]acat.[M]onster `: Hey kak , relink aye .
` [C]acat.[M]onster `: Klau best okay kan , you change my link name uh to this . (:
` [C]acat.[M]onster `: Uhuh ! (: Hahas . OKay lah , i dah change uh ! Best tak nye ?
; wah! dah tukar namer seyhhh! hahaha. okay, relinked! ;D
YanaaAybeybeh: Hello , i passed by . You're pretty & last long yeah
; Thank you yana (:
nadea: hey , was here . wah very sweeet . lastlong !! ((:
;haha..thanks nad. you too ok! last longer.
CUZZY: CUZZYYYYYY!!!! link me lehh!! HAHAHA!!! XD
;hahaha. alright. linked! (:
baby fritzie: awwwwww,i did all that cos ur just the best thing that ever happen to me....;)
;hahaha. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU ALOT! :D

2010-12-23T11:08:00.011-06:00

i had so much fun with baby today. celebrated our 2nd monthsary in advance. we went to town and catch a movie titled "tron the legacy". the movie is neutral for me not that boring. but i still enjoyed watching it. after which we headed off to marina barrage. he opened a topic of which he left me with one big question mark since yesterday when i asked him what he was actually doing on that particular time. i got his answer just now. i was speechless and touched. i didn't expect him to give me such a sweet gift. i really can't describe the feeling that i had when he showed me the gift. i can't hold onto the tears in my eyes. sorry baby. haha!

this is the gift from him. a disc with 15 songs inside it that remind me of us plus two pictures pasted at the front and back of the cover. how sweet of him. he's the sweetest thing ever. he's the first guy that give me this. i love you so much mohamed shah nasrullah. you're leaving me tomorrow for a short vacation with your family. nevermind, i will wait for you to come home okay. always remember, far in distance but near at heart. you'll always be the angel of my heart baby! muahmuahmuah! ♥

sabbbb: ding dongg , assalamualaikum makcikk
; kau dah takde keje eh gal? haha. siao!
Rara!: yelah, klua mana nak ajak aku lagikan.
; yeaa, betol kate syaam. sume last min plan. chill ;)
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Cacat tk suke . CHange one .
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Kak , cepat jumpe cacat boleh ?! You know how much i rinduu you ?! Btw Monster nt nice like boy uh .
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: BUDAK?! I bite you into pieces uh !!! Wow , ade kongfu pe ? Hahas . ! You uh Monster !
; hahahah. i know you miss me so much kan kan kan. heheh. don't want change lah. MONSTER nice whuaartt. hahaha. biler nak game dahhh!

2010-12-21T22:21:00.003-06:00

my hp camera quality really sucks at night.

i want baby's eyelashes please. HAHA!

so basically went out with love and friends to town. had fun with them especially with my baby. i was quiet clumsy yesterday. i pity my bud for that. it happened when i didn't manage to grab baby's hand and i fell and landed on my bud. i end up sitting down laughing at myself with some others who saw it. damn it. haha. i don't feel like expatiating all about yesterday. i hate this mix feelings i'm currently having. i hate this feeling when something make my heart feel like dropping and my throat swells up for a moment. after which i feel the tears in my eyes and i just can't speak. i can't do anything but stare. and then it sinks in and it's this unbelievable feeling in your chest like it's collapsing and all i can do next is tears. :( when i woke up in the morning today, i received two text messages from baby. i thought he was already sleeping by that timing but hell no, he was still awake. i'm sorry if i've made you feel guilty. it's not your fault anyway. it's mine. don't think too much and make yourself worried. i love you so much! ♥

Yanieycynerh: Was here bby.
; thanks for dropping by babe (:
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Last but not least , Cacat maner takot kak . Kak takot cact kn ? See , i tau lah . No prasan2
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Oh and another thing im not a MONSTER !! :@ I bite you thn you know ! Hahas
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: My kak very cute and also very TAK MALU !!! HAHAHAHA !!! Same like me uh . I not cute only .
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Huh ? You say you cute ? Ala kak , jgn step cute plus tak malu lah . ! Hahas . Joking lah .
;eh ni budak. aku flying kick kang baru tau. i'm scared of you cause you're a monster! MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER! muahahahah!
Guest: Last long ngan Abg Shah okay . Just passing by . Heh !
; thanks! put your name next time okay. :D
fynasmalkid.o: yaya! whr have you been?? rindu you!
; you yg menghilangkan diri you kan. siao! i still at yishun whattt! you jaoh nak mampos how to meet doink!
EIQA :D: Shahia, kite kene enjoy slagi bole enjoy, nanti da start skola, otak tk abis-abis blaja jek (:
; hahahah. yea btol tu. see you next year okay! (:

2010-12-16T21:54:00.004-06:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Plkq0sd-n54

SHAHFRIZIE : Hope this song will make u feel better....

I'm sorry baby,i never meant to hurt u.

Your Forgiveness will not change the past, but it will brighten up MY the future...

since i haven't update about last week, i will do it now. had fun with my two lovely pigs. we walk around town area and camwhored. five years of friendship and still counting <3

went to syaam's pit. i ate almost half-cooked food on that day but still delicious you know. hehehe.

really had fun with love and friends.

on tuesday that has just passed, ate at seoul garden with them. we are the only group that is very chaotic. everyone there kept looking at us but still we don't even care. haha. thanks for the treat baby. \m/

oh yes, on my previous post i updated saying about my pigs coming over to my place right. they came over and there's one epic incident happened to us. while three of us was sitting on my bed suddenly my bed collapsed. hahaha. i can't stand laughing at it. after which, i told my dad about it and he smiled and say "korang ni dudok kat katil ke lompat2 kat katil." ahaha. i can still remember vividly how it collapsed with the impact. :D

today is thursday, how fast. obviously i'm gonna rot myself at home today. baby stay over at ang mo kio since yesterday after accompanying him from interview. and now he's off to jb. my phone gonna be dead till night. i miss him already. tskkkk. i have to wait for next week to come then i can see his face again. feeling so lonely without him around. okay wait, now i feel like watching hindi movie after so long of not watching it. hahaha. so random. bye bye.

qiyaya: update lah!!!!!!!!!
; updated giler :P
arinamoi: okayyyy ni link arin - arin-amoi.blogspot.com = lagy senang macam gyni. haha.
; okay linked. (:
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Hahas . (: okay lah okay lah . aku jgn kacao kak okay ? Hahas . (: tak lah you mane pendek .
` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: you tak pendek okay ? you tall . VERY VERY VERYYYY TALLLLL!!!! I most pendek . okay ? can like that?
;hahahah. don't want ah tall. no cute. HAHAHAHA. tau kau takot eh! you don't prasan lah dik. you're still taller than me. monster! :D

2010-12-12T23:14:00.011-06:00

i love you so much, mohamed shah nasrullah. xoxo.

i will post a proper one in the next post. i wanna take a shower before sab and rara reach my place. heh.

have a good start of the week people :D

2010-12-07T08:42:00.010-06:00

i'm so bored like _|_

school reopening real soon. i'm not prepared for 2011 lah please. 4nc next year so not gonna be as chaotic as this year 3nc cause some of them are left behind and somemore they are the loud and talkative ones. sure as hell my form teacher is happy about it cause she will only need to teach a small group of people next year and even majority of the problematic faggots are not gonna be with her. *yawns* i predict that my first day of school should be a fuck up one for me. i have yet to make my own name tag. heh, lamshiet. -.- malas aku nak layan. i want mr bang bang back please. HAHAHA. no more corks~ :D

just now met baby for awhile before he went off to work. but still, i miss him like freaking much. i love you like how fat woman loves her foods. muahahaha. after which, met with hernie. from the time she met me she can't stop talking. seems like i have missed alot of stories huh. hahaha. mak ayam betol ni pompan. tskkkk. cannot u know. she even asked me for tips on how to have a long relationship. like usual my answer is "i dont know" cause i was too lazy to elaborate about it. my energy went low after meeting her. aku tgk die, aku yg penat. byk bobal macam mak joyah. hahaha! so anyway, i'm going out tomorrow. yeay~! like finally.

i rindu babyrykaa i! :(

` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Hello kak pendek !! (: I was here aye ! Iloveyou !! Meet me soon !!! (:
; yelah, aku tau aku pendek. sorry budak tinggi! haha. i love you more :D yeah, meet up real soon before school reopen ^^
arinamoi: haha sala sent url. okay ni betul punye
arinamoi: yayaRykaa! hee. your linked already. link me too
; Arin, ur link takde. hahaha.
wawanSOAP: SUP MOK 2006.....hahahahahhahahaha *knockshead/legs*
;kau sial. diam ah. kau nak kasi matair aku tau aku dulu macam anak nippon paint eh? die dah tau lah eh! dah, prangai last warning eh kau. siket2 cukop -.-

2010-12-06T03:40:00.006-06:00

Saturday's:

Yesterday's:

baby humairah ^^

baby huzaifah ^^

basically on saturday went to kak nur's wedding. wish you all the best in your future endeavors kak nur. yesterday work at khatib with garfield and mouse. hehe. had a long day there but still we enjoyed ourselves eventhough we are all worn out. before we started working we camwhored for awhile and filled our stomach. while working saw wawan there and we snapped picture together. after everything has ended we filled our stomach again and went up to have some rest. baby humairah and baby huzaifah so cute lah please. hehe (: ra says " kau tunggu lagi 10 tahun." HAHAHA. today i am so fucken bored at home. plan is cancelled with rara and sab cause my daddy said i cannot go out due to certain reasons -.- so i rot at home all the way. and i swear today i have a very bad day ahead. _|_

Mohamed Shah Nasrullah, i miss and love you so much.♥

2010-12-01T07:35:00.003-06:00

had a blast with love ones on 29th and 30th. but i hate how the time flies so fast. :( i'm too lazy to update about what happened and all. i update just to keep my blog alive. hehehe. :D

BABY RYKAA, i love you so goddamn much! ♥

- wawanSOAP, kau tag aku lagi aku ban kau ah okay? kau tau tak irritating? -.-

` Chels.Isth.Cacat `: Hey KAKAK !!!! Iloveyou so much too !! Hahas . (: So you wrote me because you bored lah ? Oh ok lah . thanks uh my pendek tak malu Kak !!! Hahas ! Btw kak LAST LONG LONGGGGG!!!! Thanks for the wish and Tagged !! (: Stay pretty uh kak !!
; hahaha. what pendek2? shut up you. thanks for the wish too sweetheart. i know you love me too :P nyehehe.
Syakirah: was here baby. last long alright? much misses. mwah!
; thanks babe. you too alright. meet up soon. muahmuah! (:

2010-11-27T03:26:00.006-06:00

i can still remember vividly when the first time i met you. time flies super fast and it's reaching to our first month in few hours time. yes, i know it's only our first. but hey, in a month there's so many challenges fall unto us. i believe that whatever happens, nothing will ever change so much to the point that we'll be apart. i love you to bits and pieces my one and only MSN. hehe (:

chelsia, if you are reading this let me tell you that you rocks my sock big time. haha :D happy 9th to you babe. last forever. i didn't know till you tell me just now. what a coincidence. btw, don't ever underestimate short people like me. you look older because you're taller than me. so i should call you kakak instead of you calling me that huh. okay, stop it. -.- actually, i feel unusual when people call me kakak especially you. hahaha.

whatever that i type above about her is all random stuffs stuck in my mind. what to do now? baby is busy working and my phone is so silent. boring saturday. hell -.-

CONTINUE:
i feel so stupid when i read back all my old entries/posts in my blogger account. funny, stupid, kental and all lah. ROFL. my sec one and two life is so the kental. hehehe. sumpah mendak giler till i read almost all of it. haha! OKAY BYE. food calling my stomach already. >.<

SHAHFRITZIE : For all these days you have been my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night.
Every day with you is sweeter than the last. You are my endless love.
You have dressed my hopes and dreams with rainbows. Celebrating us!
Still looking forward to spending the rest of my life with you.
I'd do it again . . . and again . . . and again!
My love for you grows and grows with each passing day.
One kiss for every day you've brightened my life.
If I had to do it over, I would marry you again and again.
With many happy wishes for joy in your hearts.
Happy monthsary, to my partner, my best friend.

CONTINUE,yes the first month some what was rough,but hey thats all parts and puzzle of a relationship...
so lets always stay strong and make ourself proud!!! I LOVE U BBYFRITZIE.:)

2010-11-25T04:28:00.000-06:00

i'm so in love with their dance moves. nak dance balik lah please. paper dolls rocks big time ;D
i'm freaking bored now! nothing to do. erghh.. today rot at home the whole day. chat and webcam with baby for hours. everybody's gonna be home soon! yeay! hahaha -.- okay dah, bye.

2010-11-23T07:40:00.011-06:00

sorry for the blurry pictures taken at the airport. sab woke me up earlier than my alarm clock did. -.- in fact, it was tough for me to open my eyes. the most unbearable time to get separated from my bed. haha. i hate alot of parts inside the bus. a man with shades sitting on my right side is being such a irritant. pffft. so i decided to turn on my left and ignore that man but unfortunately on my left side is even more irritating. i have to control on my breathing early in the morning. such a fook siaa. was pissed for awhile. after all that, meet ninin until she check in. we headed off for breakfast at mac. did nothing much. after which bus-ed home and went slacking with sab and do some 'stuffs' for something. i can't wait. hahaha. i hope everything's gonna move smoothly ;)

no one's home except for my grandmother. friggin bored right now. i'm waiting for baby to text me . zzzzzz. penat bobal abeh text pon belom. tskkkk. okay toodles. mendak siaaaaaaaa~

-
ahhh. pnjng umor call lagi. hahahaha.. love youu babiii... :D

2010-11-19T20:13:00.000-06:00

Congratz baby. i'm proud of you! PROM KING SEYH! hahaha.

all the best for your training today. i miss you so much!

going out soon to my work place to give some things for my work. poor fatin, she's gonna be home alone again. wait for my return okay, sleep till i'm home. hahah. most prolly i'm going out with my family and her's on saturday. will be meeting my garfield and tikus later on. yada! aku rindu kite tige together. heh. okay bye, i'm so gonna be late for later. i have to be out of my house at 10.30 but now it's already 10.15 (Y) bye! muahmuah!

2010-11-16T05:55:00.002-06:00

baby is the one that have been updating my blog. i'm too slothful to update my blog lately. since he has already updated about yesterday i won't expatiate much about it for the second time. after all the blast i had with him, i went for my training until 9pm. i felt so shagged. and today, i went to meet him before he went off to jb with his family. i hope we could meet up on thursday. it's all about time. i rather sit at home tomorrow with my grandmother eventhough she can be such a irritant at times. i don't wanna tag along with mummy due to certain reasons. but in any ways i wanna escape from going, maybe, i still have to go no matter what. fml -.- moreover my dearest cousin is coming over my house tomorrow and overnight here. yadayada! i still have things to be done by this friday. come on yaya, don't be lazy. hohoho. i miss my insane yet sweet boyfriend right now :(

2010-11-15T11:35:00.000-06:00

ShahFritzie,

Wake up early today,meet up with BABY at 8.30 then headed to syam's house....

straight to town,for job interview(will be starting on friday).while waiting for the rest,BABY and I went "shopping" didnt do much though,after walking for like 2hr around the same place we headed to BK for lunch(cam whore a lil)

"take it or leave it"<3

After that,went to the river for more pictures ;) wooohooo!!!

Awww...<3

Baby wanted to give me a surprise but wasnt a successful one.hahahha!
I LOVE YOU <3 This is what u wrote

THankx for the gifts....<3 I LOVE YOU TOO!!!

"I love u no matter what the future hold for us,i will love u until the of time and beyond.This words are my promise to never take u for granted or doubt the love that binds us for now and all eternity. I LOVE YOU muhamed shah nasrullah <3"

2010-11-13T20:11:00.000-06:00

SHAHFRITZIE,

soccer match was a waste of time...luckyly babyfritzie was there...damn she's so sweet(u know wat i mean by that rite?);)hahaha.then headed to honeyhut for dinner with BRO's.Baby send me home,well atleast to the bus stop.Had a nice long talk wif baby.i guess that solve ur problem and made us understand each other...;)LOVE U BODOH...
"Every relationship,tend to have problem,but we will just have to forgive and forget""Nobody is perfect" i'll understand if u make any mistake,just remember i will always LOVE u *BABYFRITZIE*

*If u text my girl agn stalker,well u'll find out wat i'll do....*

2010-11-11T04:51:00.002-06:00

camwhored using my webcam. MENDAK BABE MENDAK!

i rot at home the whole day today. fuckinsolutely bored. what should i do now?! -.-

babyrykaa, aku rindu kau bodohh! :(
all the best for your last paper tomorrow. love you so much. muahmuah! ^^

- you're sucha sickooooooooo dude >.< heh, stalker :D

2010-11-10T05:42:00.009-06:00

fake a smile, feeling so out of place.internally, i just want to tears.

- sorry for making you feel irate twice today. you weren't feeling well but you still came down to my place just for me. thank you so much. i feel bad. yes, very much. i'm truly sorry. :(

here it goes again, i don't know when is this going to end. dad keep on talking about that incident. i feel like giving up now. sigh. the moment dad step into this house just now, he suddenly get furious and talk about that shit emphatically and loudly. dad, i can feel you but please, don't let your mind run wild. the things that you keep thinking won't make you feel any better. i did what you told me to do.so ignore what you heard from others. if i said i will prove them wrong means i will do it. this thing need time to change not in a blink of an eye. even me, i need time too. you can't expect me to be a study-holic or righteous daughter of yours in a short period of time. i know i'm in the wrong but you can't stress me up like this. please, i need time and space for myself. doesn't mean i did it now, i will do it again or forever. everyone makes mistake, even you. your daughter here isn't perfect at all! so please, GIVE ME TIME :'(

2010-11-09T08:20:00.008-06:00

Just the way you are malay version. nice~!

many voices of charice. coolshit! :D

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i don't want to think about the incident that happened few days back. but i just can't. that shit kept on playing in my mind. i'm not afraid to admit that i'm weak but with baby around, hopefully i could go through this with patience. he's my strength. i love Mohamed Shah Nasrullah so much! <3

2010-11-08T05:38:00.004-06:00

SHAHFRITZIE : Problems are bound to happen in a relationship.we will just have to stick together and wait for your freedom.i guess that i'll have no choice but to wait years before having you all for myself.:(

plsplspls dont disturb my life..!!!.i know that ur concern but i'm old enough to think for my self.

so i guess, you people are satisfied enough with what you did to make me become a better person. -.- hello, no one can force me to change. i know what i'm doing even if i'm fucking 15 years old. and now, no more socializing in any network especially facebook. yea, i can only do blogging, twittering, youtubing, tumblring. that's all! no life, i know right. -.- big F lah okay. i don't wanna talk much about it here. i'll make sure, one day, i prove you people wrong. i'm stressed + downcast. erghh :@ FML.

I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO REPEAT THE SAME OLD WORDS AGAIN. ONCE IS ENOUGH.

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2010-11-03T09:58:00.003-05:00

fucken hilarious. she get frustrated and annoyed because she can't sing the right notes. sumpah kekek! hahaha.

get well soon baby. i love you so much! ♥

before i end this post i shall wish my sister shai in advance. cause maybe, i won't be updating my blog tomorrow.

Happy 19th Birthday Siti Shaiha. I love you sister! have a blast on your special day. may you succeed in your future endeavours! muahmuah! ^^

2010-11-02T06:27:00.006-05:00

i was late for my coaching class today but teacher didn't say a word to me cause she, herself was late for it too. heh. just that i came a lil bit later than her. went to slack with friends for awhile after my coaching class while waiting for baby to reach yishun. gila i baru siket tau i tunjok, blom full lagi. HAHAHA :P

and now i'm..........................

bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!
bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!
bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!
bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!
bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!
bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!bored!

okay bye, nak chat ngn babyrykaa i. oh yes, my previous post wasn't me who blog it. it's him. the way i update my blog is way different from him. he got abit jiwang2 ahhh . hehehehehe. oppss! sorry baby. :D bye all , muahmuah!

2010-10-31T11:43:00.000-05:00

BabyFritzie :

i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love you ♥ i love

BabyRykaa :

My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep....My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.

This blog will be under renovation soon!

2010-10-30T09:53:00.000-05:00

i had a great time spent together with baby eventhough it wasn't that long. i love you very much baby. xoxo! (:

2010-10-28T09:39:00.002-05:00

BABY AKU GATAL ~
eh tak, both baby fritzie and baby rykaa GATAL!!! HAHAHA.

i love today! hahahahaha . :P

cause everything that happened infront blk 741 was coincidence. hehehe.

sorry girls for not attending school today. but we still can meet each other next week. that story is unbelievable. hey, stop being a fish monger please. you betrayed your own bestfriend. :( kau terase kau punye pasal lah okay. sape makan cili terase pedas. muahahha! (:

tomorrow mark of parents-teachers-conference. but i'm very sure that my super tak annoying dad gonna give me a very good lecture once he's back from work. in the other hand, i'm so happy that my mum already know what my teacher is going to tell her tomorrow. not literally know it all, just a part of it. heh.

- i love you fritzie <3

2010-10-27T08:00:00.006-05:00

i'm back form kl three days ago. i did some shopping but i ain't satisfied. dammit. i must buy whatever i want! hehe. on the 25th had a blast with the awesomest to sentosa. i've gotten my overall result back. thank god that i managed to be in sec 4 next year. i'm fuckingsolutely relieved but not too happy about it. just a few minutes back, went to meet my babygirl. i'm falling deep. O.o omg. hahahaha. so anyway, i won't expatiate anything about outing to sentosa. pictures in my facebook shall do it. i'm lazy to upload it here. hehe. i'm becoming a lil bit too lazy now to update my blog. till we meet again in my next post. pardon me for the very short and sweet post here. bahahaha.

- better catch me (:

2010-10-21T08:23:00.001-05:00

i don't want to talk and think about my results. yucks.

i want to enjoy my day tomorrow till monday. the most i want is to be in the advance list please. tomorrow will be meeting fritzie and at night will be off to KL with family and cousins. i want to go shopping. shop till i drop. happy but at the same time sad because of certain reasons. hehe. kay lah people, don't miss me so much okay. haha. tak tau malu nye aku . :P i will be back on sunday. short vacation je. can't wait. :D

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2010-10-20T06:25:00.004-05:00

so yea, finally pictures at rara's chalet have been put in here. i don't want to elaborate about it. let the pictures do the talkings. (:

- Yesterday's.

- Rara's chalet.

too lazy to upload more. check out in facebook alright.
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school was neutral today. form teacher gave us a serious lecture during our first period of ve. i am fucken not prepared for my results tomorrow. but i was relieved to know that i got high marks for my overall malay language. nice. i hope that my english gonna be awesome too (: *pray hard.

2010-10-19T21:48:00.002-05:00

neither me or you wanted this to happen. it's about time and situation after all. i don't want you to put so much hopes on me. you said you deserve a second chance but i'm too afraid to let you have it. it's not worth it to wait for something you wish for. it's gonna be long. i don't want you ended up getting yourself with full of disappointment. if this thing going to happen in future, don't ever say that i didn't warn you.

today is my school marking day so there's no school for today. yesterday went to causeway point with girlfriends to fill our stomach there. someone asked me to text once i reach there but my bat went dead. sorry. reached home at around 3 plus. few more hours to go and off to meet fritzie and rara. hehe. actually i don't want to do any blogging today but boredom strikes me super hard now. rara, be a lil bit patience yeah? today you will surely get all the pictures. ^^

if anyone is not clear and keep asking me at formspring. yes, i'm back to my single life but that doesn't mean i'm available. to another anonymous person in my formspring, fritzie isn't my guy alright. we are just friends. -.-" that's all i could answer you not more (: that person must be someone who know him. give me his full name some more. aku tau lah name die sedap like cinnamon melts. hahahaha!

2010-10-15T03:26:00.003-05:00

i thought all the wild thoughts that ran through my mind on that particular day gonna worsen my situation. but i was wrong. things came up well. thanks sister and mummy for understanding. i won't do it in school again. now i don't mind if someone is to inform my mum about my bad progress in school cause i told her earlier than it's too late. honesty is the best policy, yeah. hahaha. promblems are now far far far away from me. yeayness!

it's time to party people. hehehe. exams are finally over(to me, monday papers are not important!). my art was a hard core practical i have been up to. i only gotten myself an hour of sleep today which is only from 5 to 6 in the morning. pathetic huh. art is fucken time consumer. i was terribly shagged after going to mira's so called chalet yesterday at pasir ris bungalow with sabby. had a great time spent together with mira's schoolmates too. i suka! hehe! ^^ we even watch a malay love story titled "Lagenda Budak Setan". i didn't really focus on watching it cause frankly speaking, i've already watch it. to whoever is waiting for the pictures, be patient okay cause pictures will be in on monday.

- kau bilang aku, manusia mana yang dah rompak bank nak pergi surrender diri dia kat police? common sense lah brother! hahaha. i'm happy to know that some people, somewhere, did commented on your nonsensical attitude. heheh. this one i like very much! ;D

one more thing, SORE THROAT PLEASE GO AWAY. you hurt my throat so much. idiotic. :(

2010-09-30T05:52:00.004-05:00

the day before yesterday went to chacha sister's birthday party. had a superb night out with all the yellows. spent our time with so much of camwhoring. haha. i only upload a few here. more at facebook. enjoy! ^^

today, after a few minutes i reached my house, received a call from eira saying that she's wanting to go my place. so yea, slack with her for awhile and we was freaking bored. i decided to doll her up. hahaha. biol sia prangai. korang tengok eh ...

i'm not really good at dolling other people up. hahaha! LOL!

i promised myself not to spend so much time on socializing in cyber. saturday awaits me. saya tidak sabar! ^^ hahaha. i'm getting so excited. what was that supposed to be yaya? hahaha. I HAVE YET TO STUDY. goshhh !! >.<

2010-09-25T08:13:00.009-05:00

i did this only when i'm fuckingsolutely bored. insanity strikes with so much of boredom. today rot at home and help mum with some preparation for later. bunch of my relatives are coming. yeay, and i'm so not going to entertain them. am anti social. haha. kay, NOT. actually, not that i don't wanna talk to them, it's just that i'm not used to interact well with them. while i was still blogging i have to take care of this small and chubby babygirl when my aunt went to fill some food inside her stomach. haha.

cute right? geram you know..! haha. ^^
and i know my webcam quality is very low. so sorry. haha.
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gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa♥ , i miss yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. ):

2010-09-24T11:33:00.002-05:00

alot of pictures are still in ayuni's camera. went raya with friends yesterday. had so much fun with them. i know my last picture is ugly. hahaha. today had a clash with two plans but i went to meet gila and spent our time at chinese garden. i love today eventhough i'm currently not in a good mood with something. for tomorrow i don't know where to go. goodnight everyone.

2010-09-19T22:54:00.001-05:00

went raya with family and relatives at jb. great time spent together with them. when 12 midnight strikes my aunties and uncles became so hilarious. uncle pretended to be drunk with the 'red wine' padehal air cherry seyh. haha. finally home sweet home at around 2.30am. today while i was still sound asleep someone came my house but i'm not surprise. nothing special. going out with family again later on. food is calling my stomach right now. nyehehe. the aroma of mum cooking is too strong for me to ignore. hahaha. tomorrow is moanday. yeaaa. i must carry that a2 size paper all the way to school. fook yo. zzZZzz.

- Noguerra.

2010-09-17T08:11:00.001-05:00

i was supposed to go out with gila but i don't have any free slots today. after school had a blast with 3 'cacats' while squeezing our brain for art practical. i'm blithe to have my first page done. i feel so bad now after receiving a text message from mr.amin. fish hole :O i promise myself to complete my page 2 and 3 by today. if i don't do it today, monday will be mr.amin's very nice caring day for us. ^^ -.-

mr.serld, your false pretenses are too obvious. please stop it. i can't be bothered anymore. i'm in my own world now. so be it. it's better to be hated for who you are than for who you're not. banyak songe banyak bohong >.<

2010-09-15T22:54:00.000-05:00

didn't attend school today. i'm down with fever after vomiting none stop in school yesterday. i hate this. ergh. i feel like throwing my handphone inside the bin. i feel so frustrated with the starhub service since yesterday. it took more than five minutes for a message to be send to another person. how horrible. zzzz. i know i've not been that active here cause i don't know what to write/share here. take care ^^

2010-09-09T13:12:00.000-05:00

Slamat hari raya to all muslims. ^^

i'm so effing bored. time watch: 2.10am and i'm still wide awake. haha. i had a great day yesterday. nyehehe(:

anw, i changed my blogskin cause i get bored with my previous skin. haha. i don't believe that ramadhan has gone so fast. i miss someone, somewhere. have a great day ahead people. goodnight/morning :D

2010-08-21T02:21:00.002-05:00

spent my night time with king kong and garfield yesterday. our rat wasn't with us like usual. i hope she could make it to our third meet up for this year. how pathetic. just coming to our third time for the next meet up. the consequences of making ourself occupied with our own stuffs and life. after all the blast i had, the moment when i stepped into my house, someone spoilt my mood in just half and hour later. isn't it enough that i was actually keeping myself quiet and not to be rude. in any ways i chose to react, it wouldn't be rightful to you people. the best that i could do is to ignore. life is unfair but in the other hand life is wonderful to have the disastrous things out of our way. on this holly month, many hard obstacles are falling unto me. to test my patience and to see how much i could withstand handling my emotions. however, i'll still be happy and try hard not to despair my single moment wherever i might be to think of the miseries i had. doesn't mean the approval of forgiveness could make a person forget about it. apart from this, for my own opinion after reading/watching a typical dramatic quarrel in cyber, i feel that people who are putting more oil into the flame when actually everything are starting to be calm are bunch of brainless people. they wouldn't want to admit defeat cause to them by doing that, people might think they are the typical sore losers. awww, too bad, if you don't like what i wrote, you still have to deal with it. cause even if you intend to be defensive about this by exchanging words with me, none of your words could change my mind. omg, why in the hell am i being so emotional here. hmmm, well let's stop talking about it. just so you know, my heart will for sure get excited whenever the raya songs being played. (:

2010-08-19T05:59:00.002-05:00

yesterday had a hectic day in school yet i still drag myself to singapore indoor stadium for the youth's olympic games with my classmates. fucken bored. damn it. after which, only ten people including me went to geylang to fill our stomach. by then we don't need to be worried anymore cause we dragged our break fast time quite sometime. anyway, i find people now a days are strange cause they are totally strange. hahaha. they will often make assumptions and like something that they did or say to others which they think it's satisfying them much. did you just feel the bite at your tongue after reading this human? ouch. hahaha. dumb.

2010-08-14T05:18:00.002-05:00

i'm a type of girl with full of complexity. still can't deny the fact that wherever i might be, wherever i shift myself to, there'll always be haters circling around me. the deal here is, i don't pay you to hate me neither do i wish to be hated. you created your own fantasy world designated by hatreds. you simply can't accept the fact that others are way much better then yourself, or you ostracize others base on lacking of perfections. you don't know who i am, you don't know the hardships i've faced and things that i have overcome or the disfunction i came from. the past mistakes i've done and i'm trying to learn to make things right. being able to control my emotions, feelings and fear as for i don't wish to be controlled by it. the little things that makes me realise how fortunate i've always been were spacing in room for improvements to learn from my wrongdoings, not repeating what has been done. of course, first impressions relate to how you feel about that person. just so you know, the way i type or the way my picture expressions exposed doesn't really reflects me. it's about knowing the real personality inside and out. it isn't about the beauty they posseses in the face, it's more towards the inner light of their heart. it has always been the heart that matters. i'm not saying i consist a good lining in heart. the simple thing is, you don't know me. don't be judgmental towards others. if you still insist on being a douche, by all means bring it on. even if i defy gravity, you won't bring me down.

finally, i've successfully killed my time and boredom by making myself preoccupied with this lengthy post. this post doesn't refer to anyone. cause whatever i wrote above are what exactly implied inside my mind. i write it with no hesitations. if you feel the pinch, well you deserve it. maybe you ever acted this way. ;)

2010-08-13T10:44:00.002-05:00

(i love this picture the most. the entire sec 3 students with all the teachers. spot me if you can. haha.)

leftover pictures from camping. hell yes, i miss playing all the activities, even by interacting with the teachers over there it was way too different when they are in school. easy say, i miss every wonderful things that happened there. random nye 0.o . anyhotttt, supra is on my way. i'm so loving it! ^^

whatever negative things that playing on your mind or implied inside your heart might be true but doesn't mean i started feigning again, you can continue doing on your daily routine. you should know that my mum gave birth to me approximately fifteen years back not yesterday cause even if you surreptitiously view, i can still sense it. i feel sorry for you. quit defending yourself by using words to condemn others in cyber. once my heart demand me to rake up your past, it wouldn't be nice anymore. my silence isn't because i'm afraid of you, just that i simply pity you for this. don't take your last chance for granted. i dislike the history that going to repeat itself. every human being have their own limitations. you have your limits, i have mine too. you're too easy to be fooled at especially by all the beats. grotesque strumpet. rofl. (:

2010-08-12T05:54:00.003-05:00

pictures was taken on 9 of august. had so much fun with them. there's nothing for me to expatiate about it here cause pictures above did the talkings already. more pictures has been uploaded in facebook since tuesday. enjoy! ^^ fasting month just started and people are already talking about raya. hahaha.yesterday was abit sappy and boring. oh yes, i'm looking forward on this coming wednesday. badminton pun badminton lah 3nc-ians. lol. hopefully everything's gonna be fine yeah. especially to sharon who don't know how to get to SIS. so cute. no worries, we all will be there with you. :) i should better get going now, it's reaching to break fast time.

2010-08-09T23:44:00.000-05:00

first and foremost, happy 45th birthday Singapore. no worries, i won't be rotting at home today. waiting for few more hours to past and i'm out from my house. i purposely update my blog neither to keep my blog alive nor i want to. it's because i want to kill my boredom and time. what should i do next to make myself preoccupied. *thinking* well, let's put this aside. haha. i shall deal with it later on. been five days i'm back from camping but i can still feel the exhaustion internally and my back is still hurts that i can feel the pain too.